UNCERTAIN

tell me who loves uncertainties. whether it’s about the result of an application, or about where your clique would go this coming summer for an out-of-town reunion, or about who your soulmate is that muddles your already muddled-mind, we want to know, not tomorrow, but right away, RIGHT NOW.

we love to reckon our future. we create an image in our heads of what our ‘tomorrows’ would be like- with your hubby waking you up with a tray bearing all those breakfast goodies (now i know you’re imagining yourself with your current boyfriend with this scenario), with your boss congratulating you for a job well done (or if you are as ambitious as me you’ll think of yourself instructing your workers with you as the employer), yada yada yada. we can spend as much as an hour fiddling with our minds scenarios that might occur, unlikely or not they may seem to be.

aside from bugging our minds about the future, we oftentimes think about the past, particularly about those instances where a question was left unanswered, where something was put on an end with no notice or closure whatsoever, where a situation required an explanation but nothing was acquired even having made many attempts to do so. minds will go haywire not just because its curiosity wants to be positively responded but because it would need to grasp the luxury called ‘peace of mind.’

tell me who love uncertainties. tell me if you know one who, never in his or her waking life, fantasized having the capability to have an idea of what others are thinking or acquiring the power to see the future.

it will make no sense in wondering why people always want to be certain of things. we were made this way, to be the most curious specie in the animal kingdom. by always wanting to get rid of uncertainty, we bombard people with questions, we beg for closure, we gossip, we hurt people- just to end up realizing that we can never always be certain.

“…part of the fantasy of every betrayed person is that one day, the person who hurt you will come back and answer all your questions and apologize for hurting you…

…but the thing is.. they wont.. they’ll die a liar… and will feel good about themselves.. that’s how selfish they are and they can’t give you closure, you have to find it yourself…

… you get angry with them.. then you get over them.. bless them in your mind and have peace with yourself.. when or if that person comes back, you can say hi and goodbye in the same sentence..”

- OPRAH

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