Wednesday, June 24, 2009

what is 'your little moment?'

i saw two people counting out their money today. the first one was an officemate who held herset of one-thousand bills.perhaps she had to make sure that she will not fall short of money for the eighteen- thousand monthly fee she pays for the apartment she lives in.
the other one was a vendor counting out his twenty-peso bills. you could right away tell how many he’s got- he held three of it in his hands- his income for the first hour of selling sweet corn, kakanin, and puto. ‘he gotta earn more, ‘ he might have thought. he tucked the bills in his decrepit wallet and thought about the nine people awaiting his return at home.
that moment i saw the fifty-year old man counting out the money he’s got, probably the only money he had for the day, i could not help but cry. i thought about the luxury of residing in an eighteen-thousand-a-month apartment complex (ours is just half of what my officemate is paying), on getting the food you want on fancy restaturants, on getting to go to places only (she can go to dubai, singapore,japan whenever she feels like to) wealthy people can go to, and on being so many times more fortunate than those people whom their sweat we see out of their hardwork, those people whose callouses we notice, those people whe endures lots of hardship in their work in a daily basis but whose salaries are not enough for their daily needs.
i thought about my officemate without any hint of envy to her status- i thought about the big difference of other’s people status to another group of people. at this point, a man might be happily driving his newly bought chevy and at the same time another man is sleeping under the bridge where the rich man is treading, sleeping his hunger away.
everytime i see someone begging alms on the street, or someone who’s obviously sickly but is unable to get medication due to poverty, i can’t help but cry. i’ve always thought about them with the hope that may someone help them surpass their day-to-day battle with hunger, social seclusion, and the other problems caused by poverty, and by thinking so, it also led me to ponder about the own comforts that i have which i oftentimes complain about.
i know that i cannot trade places with them- because that’s not the way it shall be. but at that time that i stood before the man who was earnest in giving his family a decent meal, i knew that in my little way, i could help. few minutes later, few minutes before the man had to carry his basket of goodies to sell to a nearby street, i saw the man’s genuine smile after i handed him the set of six twenty bills for the six sweet corns i bought from him. i smiled back, teary-eyed. i can never forget that smile.
i know that this sounds over-dramatic, but there are these little moments that may seem weird to some, but may mean a lot to you. these are those little moments which creates the heart of giving, the little moments which motivates someone to be good, the little moments which make someone aspire and help make the world a better place.

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Wednesday, February 25, 2009

my vow to you

i love you and shall never leave you. i love you and shall never leave you. when others have left you to seek for a better haven, there i was, and will always be- by your side.
i love you and shall never leave you. should opportunities arise which will lead me to being apart from you, by all means i will refuse them. i will utterly decline a long distance-relationship. being with you is the best option there is.
i love you and shall never leave you. i will not stop in admiring others, yet you are the one whom i will hold with the deepest admiration. i would love to know you more, to explore your entity so that i could find more ways to serve you.
i love you and shall never leave you. i pray for all those who have left you- i do not despise them, whatever their intentions were for leaving, they are given respect. i pray that they will come back for you rather than to choose to be in the tutelage of others, for good.
i love you and shall never leave you. i can, for sure love you from afar, but the mere thought of it makes me cry. i have loved you dearly even way before i knew what that emotion really meant and my heart would never wish to asunder from yours.
i love you and shall never leave you. when others are in doubt of my announcement of this absolute affection, i keep quiet and converse with you silently- you know my heart so well and i regard you as my ultimate dream- the one that the L0rd promised me to be with.
i love you and shall never leave you. i am in content by your side, i do not seek for what they call a greener pasture because with you i am realizing the dream of the ‘promised land’day by day. what could be greater than to love you and tell others of how amiable you are and of how great you are in taking care of me.
i love you and shall never leave you. this oath might not be carved in rocks nor be written in ancient caves, yet it is imprinted in my heart where it can never be effaced. this is my oath to you and it shall never be broken. this is my oath to you- my Philippines.

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Thursday, February 19, 2009


tell me who loves uncertainties. whether it’s about the result of an application, or about where your clique would go this coming summer for an out-of-town reunion, or about who your soulmate is that muddles your already muddled-mind, we want to know, not tomorrow, but right away, RIGHT NOW.

we love to reckon our future. we create an image in our heads of what our ‘tomorrows’ would be like- with your hubby waking you up with a tray bearing all those breakfast goodies (now i know you’re imagining yourself with your current boyfriend with this scenario), with your boss congratulating you for a job well done (or if you are as ambitious as me you’ll think of yourself instructing your workers with you as the employer), yada yada yada. we can spend as much as an hour fiddling with our minds scenarios that might occur, unlikely or not they may seem to be.

aside from bugging our minds about the future, we oftentimes think about the past, particularly about those instances where a question was left unanswered, where something was put on an end with no notice or closure whatsoever, where a situation required an explanation but nothing was acquired even having made many attempts to do so. minds will go haywire not just because its curiosity wants to be positively responded but because it would need to grasp the luxury called ‘peace of mind.’

tell me who love uncertainties. tell me if you know one who, never in his or her waking life, fantasized having the capability to have an idea of what others are thinking or acquiring the power to see the future.
it will make no sense in wondering why people always want to be certain of things. we were made this way, to be the most curious specie in the animal kingdom. by always wanting to get rid of uncertainty, we bombard people with questions, we beg for closure, we gossip, we hurt people- just to end up realizing that we can never always be certain.

“…part of the fantasy of every betrayed person is that one day, the person who hurt you will come back and answer all your questions and apologize for hurting you…
…but the thing is.. they wont.. they’ll die a liar… and will feel good about themselves.. that’s how selfish they are and they can’t give you closure, you have to find it yourself…
… you get angry with them.. then you get over them.. bless them in your mind and have peace with yourself.. when or if that person comes back, you can say hi and goodbye in the same sentence..”

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