Waiting, this, we were taught well; we were told not to say the
first "Hi," never to be caught glancing, never to show any hints of
liking unless the guy shows inclinations of fondness first.
I screwed them all- these norms. Aren't
they man- made? I came to think about it and it dawned on me that things they
consider "out of the usual" are not at all bad, they are things
people would wish they'd do but won't- for the fear of negative labels. I learned
to know better, chased what I had to chase, said what I had to say and I was
happy, I recall being after freeing emotions most people would just opt to
keep; for the fear of being the only one to think that way, for the fear of
being thought weird.
I am what I am, I'd speak my mind out, of
course filtering words which are not pleasing, pondering on would- be actions
before delivering them. I risked and fell then helped myself up and having
known that pattern, I did not fear to risk again as I know I’d come standing
right away each time I fall- with time’s promise of a new day, and with
friends; with whom I share millions of laughter with, a ton- load of angst and
sentiments, and a drink or two from time to time.
I patiently wait on things I know I am
better off with God’s timing, and at the same time work on achieving what He
has set for me to claim.
I am a woman and I am not bound to just
keep on waiting. I make things happen. And I am not afraid.
December 1, 2012, 2:57 PM MLA
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